India, you are SO your hair lol

Soo, I'm better...no longer "trapped.." I went skating:]..its very soothing
alright so this weekend was the beginning of the search for prom attire. I quit with traditionalism, and am officially wearing jeans to prom..fuck you and everything youve heard of...
And in the process of doing so, I started thinking about how I'm going to do my hair..
I dont understand why sometimes we keep our hair natural, only to perm, hide, or press it..
Every style that I'd though about for my hair included one of the three options..
Can I just give in now?
I mean really, I follow all the other rules, can I break this one about being my black self?
I was reading this exerpt from Malcolm X's autobiography that was talking about his first perm haha he was all pump and then he did it and looked int he mirror like, whoa...I look like them....
But I'm realizing that...I don't dislike white people....
I just dislike some of the policies and ideals instilled by what was majority white in history..sme of these things that are still being enforced today...
So, assimilating with appearance, is that bad? Is that fair?
I mean, clearly in media, we NEVER ever see "nappy" haired black people because that's just not attractive to whoever chooses what media can publish...
can i give in?

I don't know..
I love people..
I love brown..
I love beige..
I love olive...
I love pink...
I love tan..
I love straight...
I love extra curly...
I love blue..
I love black...
I love all...
and I'm true to myself mentally, soo can I give in to one phsysical change?
...straightening my hair for prom...